Late nights are the worst. Yep, insomnia. Maybe it’s the three cups of coffee I had today. Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve been staring into bright screens for the past few hours that trick my brain into thinking that it’s still daytime. But I think worse than all of those is the simple fact that my brain goes on overdrive at night. For a while, sleeping has been torturous. I wish I didn’t have to sleep so that I could just do all the things that I want to without having to take a break.
There’s a demon in my head who starts to play
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday
And I hold my breath ’till it’s more than I can take
And I close my eyes I dream that I’m awake
I’ve by and large neglected blogging, since I think a la Miller that there isn’t enough time to write everything down while living life. However, I’m going to make an exception to that. There probably isn’t any worse characteristic of humankind than our constant myopia. We constantly forget lessons we learn even when we’ve learned them a hundred times over. We live in such a focused state that we forget to look at the big picture. Well I’m writing this down to serve as a reminder for the future, for whenever I decide to look back at this and see how I’ve progressed from where I am now.
Sophomore year isn’t without its ups and downs. For the first time since I’ve started college, I’ve really started embracing the idea of time management. While I thought I had it pretty down pat last year, I finally realized how much I didn’t. Although I’m far from becoming a morning person, I’m starting to see the value in waking up earlier to do things — even waking up at 9 frees up so much time in the day. Hopefully I’ll have enough time to go through my reading list for the semester — a whole two books (or three if a technical manual on Java counts).
Finding an internship is tough. Dealing with rejection is tough, especially when I realize that the reasons for rejection are totally avoidable on my part. But such is life, learning from mistakes, opening doors and closing them, which is part of the reason why I’m writing this post now. While I’m no longer ardently looking for more internships for the semester, I’m still looking for ways to expand on my interests, finding unsuspecting paths… Where this will take me, I don’t know as of yet. But God connects the dots, and trusting in that promise is all I need to do.
Transferring is another one of those things that have been taxing on my mind. While I won’t give it much elaboration or thought at the moment for it won’t do any good, I will say this: I want to do things not for superficial reasons, but because I’m genuinely led and compelled to do them. Whatever this means and whatever implications this has on my future decisions (read: those that need to be made in the coming few months) we will see…
Life at present is simple. Work hard, play hard, and enjoy the ride. Really, I don’t know why I get so caught up in the little things. What’s the point of stressing? I’m having the time of my life, in one of the greatest cities in the world, surrounded by some of the most amazing people I’ve ever met. Sometimes it helps to step back and appreciate what I have…so long as I don’t forget the view from up here.
There’s a difference between nighttime in New York City and in Palo Alto. I’m not talking about the obvious differences in terms of the dichotomy between city and suburb or amount of light pollution. I’m talking about the aura of a place, the serenity that you can feel — a serenity that you can’t trick yourself into believing. As I lie in my bed in the heart of Manhattan, I know very well where I am. I’m not surrounded by the sound of crickets chirping, with the occasional car or train passing by, where the loudest sound is the spitting sound of sprinklers. Sometimes, I miss the serenity. Although I could try to delude myself that I’m someplace else, reality always seems to hit one way or another. Perhaps it’s the otherworldy silence artificially imposed by the air conditioner fan, or the way my windows seem to muffle the sounds of the streets below me, as if those panels of glass were complicit in my attempt at deception. I close my eyes and try to hang on to what I can remember: those rainy Saturdays when I lie sleepdrunk in bed listening through the wall to the sound of raindrops falling on the metal gutter, those winter nights when I slam the car door and look up to see the stars as the cold invades my senses, the 6pm blinding sunset when I’m driving down Foothill Expressway staring at the silhouette of the eponymous mounds, wishing that I could spend the rest of my life in that one moment.
I realize I haven’t posted anything on my blog since October, which may seem like nothing’s happening in my life, but it’s actually the opposite. Maybe when I have time, I’ll write a whole recap or some pseudo-profound excuse about why I’ve been AWOL for so long.
But I’ll keep this short and sweet. There’s only a month and a half left of school before I’m done with my freshman year. Time flies.
Since I’ve been here, people have asked me if I miss home. Almost immediately, I unequivocally say “no,” because, to be honest, I don’t. I thought about it some more. Am I just heartless for not missing home? What is my home? Why don’t I miss it?
I recently thought about one of my favorite films, Zach Braff’s Garden State. There’s one particular scene where the main character talks about home, having been away from it for the past 9 years.
Andrew Largeman: You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn’t really your home anymore? All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your shit, that idea of home is gone.
Sam: I still feel at home in my house.
Andrew Largeman: You’ll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it’s just gone. And you can never get it back. It’s like you get homesick for a place that doesn’t exist. I mean it’s like this rite of passage, you know. You won’t have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for you kids, for the family you start, it’s like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that’s all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.
I think my view of home is much like Largeman’s, in that there’s no place evoked when I think of “home.” For the past four years, I’ve missed California. Kind of. That was home for the past 14 years. By the end of the four years, I no longer missed California. After leaving Taiwan, I didn’t miss my “home” there, either. Maybe I just don’t miss things. I kind of wish I did, though. I feel much like Largeman, who is so emotionally numbed that he doesn’t feel anything. However much he wishes to feel emotion, he is simply incapacitated. I’m living in the moment and not looking back. Is it even possible for me to look back? Granted, I have nothing in my room in Taiwan and it’s an empty, characterless room. All my stuff’s in New York, so I suppose New York is my home now. With that said, I’m still making it feel like home. Maybe someday I’ll have a home again.
So I’ve finally come to the end of a long, but rewarding escapade with Timbuk2 customer service — only one of many experiences I’ve had with customer service in general this summer. While it wasn’t the most pleasant one while going through it, in the end Timbuk2 made themselves an exemplary example of customer service done right. Then again, if they were perfect, it wouldn’t have been an escapade.
I suppose the story would start with the Timbuk2 messenger bag that I ordered in late July from a third-party retailer (Rock/Creek in Tennessee, whom I have no problems with whatsoever). The bag came within a few days after ordering it online. The story would have ended here had one zipper not been defective.
Alas, I had the option of coping with a faulty zipper on a pricey bag, or get it off my conscience by just sending it in to Timbuk2 for warranty repairs. Now Timbuk2 has a legendary warranty — basically lifetime, and they’ll cover anything, even if it’s your fault. The only caveat? You pay for return shipping. No problem, $5 to give me peace of mind. However, just to make sure that sending it in would be the right move, I decide to shoot customer service an email to see what I should do.
Days pass by without a response. Annoyed, I tweet @timbuk2 a note about how no one responded to my email. Sure enough, the next day, someone wrote back to me, apologized, and told me to email the head of customer service personally. Alright, sweet, I’m finally getting somewhere. So I send the same email to the head of customer service, and within 5 minutes I get a response. Wow, I’m impressed. He tells me to send it in, which I do. Problems then begin to arise again.
USPS sends me an email confirmation that the bag had been delivered to Timbuk2. The warranty website said that they would send me an email upon their receipt of my bag. Not a word. I send the head of customer service an email again, asking if they had received my bag. Silence. I tweet the same thing, trying to see if they got my bag. Nothing. I suppose patience is a virtue, but it wasn’t until 3 days later that I got an email giving me store credit for the bag I turned in. Perfect, end of story, right? I wish. The store credit they gave me didn’t account for sales tax, which with CA taxes is more than the cost of shipping my bag to them! P.O.’d, I send customer service an email. No response. What the heck is going on?! I order my bag anyway with the assumption that they would get the situation sorted out later. While I waited for my bag order to be processed, I perused several review sites. To my “surprise”, I found that Timbuk2’s customer service was notoriously bad. Orders would go on for weeks without a delivery. Customer service emails would go unanswered. Worried that my order would suffer the same fate, I send the head of customer service another email asking about the status of my order, and whether or not I could get the tax+return shipping cost refunded.
Finally, Timbuk2 did it right. Promptly, the head of customer service sends me an email saying that the order has been expedited. How expedited? Like it’s coming within a few hours of you reading this email. And they reimbursed my shipping fee + tax with $20 worth of store credit. Yay for accessories! With the bag in my hands, working zipper and all, I think I can safely say this case is closed.
A word of advice for Timbuk2’s customer service: Reply to your emails. It helps to make repeat customers, and more importantly, happy customers.
I’ve been playing around with an iPhone 4 for almost a week now. From someone who has been using a first-generation iPod touch for the past three years, the iPhone 4 is a huge departure. I moved back stateside a few weeks ago, so I decided now would be the perfect time to take the plunge and finally get an iPhone. Ordering through AT&T Premier was, in the grand scheme of things, a pretty painless experience. Save for a few hour-long hold times (understandable, given the immense volume of iPhone orders AT&T was processing the last few weeks of June), the entire process went smoothly, from order to FedEx truck in a little over a week. Considering the original AT&T and Apple Store estimate of three weeks, I was, to say the least, pleased. To be honest, back when the iPhone 4 was first announced in June, I failed to see what was so fascinating about the latest iPhone. I saw the “minor” changes in iOS4 and didn’t think it would be all that different from the iPhone 3Gs, or even to my iPod touch. Shows how little I knew.
I synced my iPhone 4 for the first time. Same old, same old, I figured. I synced my music, my contacts, my apps — just like I had with my trusty iPod touch from 2008. When it finally finished syncing, I slid the slider for the first time. It felt like a completely new interface. Sure, it’s still the same old home screen layout — icons, dock, pages. Perhaps it was the crispness of the new Retina display, or the ability to change the home screen background image, or the app folders. In any case, it felt completely different from the iPod touch OS I was used to. The iPhone 4 was much zippier, thanks to its A4 processor, and felt more robust than its younger sibling. How was I missing out on this for the past three years?
Amidst the excitement of acquainting myself with my new toy, I could not help but read about the controversy surrounding the “grip of death.” In all honesty, I put my hand on the left hand corner of my phone and indeed there was a significant drop in bars in the span of a few seconds. Be that as it may, it is 1) not hard to change your hand position — and I’m a lefty 2) the claims of it being a crippling aspect of the iPhone 4 are greatly exaggerated. I have dropped calls, yes, but that is not because of the iPhone, but rather because of the spotty AT&T reception I have in my house. My consensus is: if Apple issues a recall, I’d be more than willing to swap my iPhone for a non-faulty one. If they don’t, I still wouldn’t complain. I’ll just get a case and be on my way. As a phone, the iPhone 4’s been great.
One feature of the iPhone that I loved more than I expected to was FaceTime. Originally, I failed to see the appeal of it since video calling had already been done before. I’ve tried using it, but other phones I’ve tried were all way too complicated. With FaceTime, however, the process was simple, straight-forward, and enjoyable. I thought of all the possibilities that were now available with FaceTime. On Gizmodo, there was an article on using FaceTime over in-flight WiFi, which if it lasts, would up the current standards of mobile communication.
I’m sure my opinion of the iPhone will change as I get more familiar with it. As of now, with its array of apps, dead-simple interface, and sleek design, I think I’m going to enjoy using it for a long time — that is, until the iPhone 5 comes out. Kidding. Maybe.